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An open letter to my uterus

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My dear uterus,

We have been through so much together and I am deeply grateful for every experience we shared. While my awareness of you didn’t really come until my menstrual cycles began, I know you played a vital role from the very beginning. In truth our relationship began before I was even conceived. I know with all my heart I had chosen a challenging path filled with many powerful life lessons designed for the awakening and evolution of my soul.

We have healed so much together through painful and heavy menstrual cycles, sexual abuse, fibroids, adenomyosis, endometriosis, fertility challenges, a miscarriage, pregnancy, child birth, times of deep loss and buckets of shame and guilt.

The last 10 years have been particularly challenging and at times brought me to my knees. I made a conscious choice to heal at the deepest possible level and for the longest time I thought that meant you had to heal along with me. As I peeled away all the layers of guilt, shame, grief, fear and pain many symptoms improved yet you continued to weep. As an intuitive healer I believed that ANYTHING can be healed and I did everything possible to heal you. Even when I healed several fibroids they would grow back. I knew I wasn’t getting to the root.

I opened my mind to a new perspective. I became wide open to the guidance and willing to look at any path I was guided toward. When I finally let go of my attachment to heal you and became wide open to the guidance within my heart I finally heard the truth.

We created a spiritual contract for this lifetime that was designed to end with surgery. It was already written that there would come a point when it was time to remove you from my physical body. It took months for me to fully let go of my deep desire to heal you. It just wasn’t meant to be.

We had programmed you for a lifetime of dis-ease on purpose so that one day I would wake up and realize it was time to say goodbye. When I was able to release all my fear of having surgery, my shame around not being able to heal you, my worry about how I would recover, my concerns and fears about what others would think and my judgment that as an intuitive healer I should be able to heal anything in my own body, my decision to have a hysterectomy was clear in my heart.

I know in my heart I have made the best decision for both of us because when I follow my guidance it is for everyone’s highest good including you. We have walked this path of healing for many years and I am grateful for the role you played in my life. You played your part well.

I release the fear of not having another child as well as the fear of becoming pregnant once again. For my body is not meant to have another pregnancy in this lifetime. I release the shame you held for me and I am grateful for the powerful lessons you taught me. I free you from our sacred contract and hold you in gratitude forever and a day.

Weep no more my sacred friend for you are now free.

Thank you for everything you did for me. It was all worth it. I bid you farewell my good friend and hold your energy forever in my body and soul. It has been 5 weeks after surgery and I still feel your presence. While you have been physically removed from my body your energy and love remains within. It feels as if the dis-eased programming has been removed with my physical uterus and an energetic uterus remains in place.

I feel stronger physically, mentally and emotionally. I feel more joy and excitement for the adventures that life holds for me. My spirit is rising above the binds of suffering and my soul is evolving as the changes continue to integrate.

May our relationship be transformed to represent the beauty, divine love, creativity and sacredness it deserves. Thank you thank you thank you!

With much love and respect,

Sue

P.S. I was guided to share my personal experience to provide another perspective on how we can heal. I was afraid to have surgery for many reasons. Letting fear stop us from following our heart is aligning with ego which keeps us in suffering. My guidance was to have surgery. This was my unique path. We each have our own unique path to healing that is already programmed into our heart. I encourage everyone to follow their intuition and lead with their heart when it comes to healing and making decisions about their health. If you would like to discover your unique path to healing you can learn how in my new book “Heart Led Living ~ When Hard Work Becomes Heart Work”

Comments

    • Sue Dumais says

      Thank you Mary! I am so grateful to be able to connect with you each week. There are many adventures on both our paths. Heart hugs to you xo

  2. Pamela Pearson says

    What a beautiful expression and way to honor yourself, your transition and your uterus. It feels as if the whole process was very healing. Thank you for sharing yourself so vulnerably. You are a beautiful soul.

  3. Jen Salko says

    Sue….this is an absolutely stunning letter to read. I hold you in deep gratitude for showing your courage, integrity, strength, and heart to us. What a beautiful person you are in both body and soul. This world is a greater place because of who you are and how you choose to share your light. Thank you! Many, many hugs! xoxo

    • Sue Dumais says

      Thank you so much Jen! I am so grateful for your love and light. I hope to see you in August so I can give you a great big hug xoxo

  4. Charmaine Gagnon says

    Dearest Sue,
    Thank you soooo much for sharing your journey and your wisdom the world…
    Honour is one of the words that I use often now…
    It is beautiful, the way you have learned to honour your body, honour your soul path, and honour your heart`s guidance….
    You are such an inspiration, such a great teacher just by allowing us to observe how you do it…
    The gratitude you show in the words you speak is profound…
    Thank you for everything you are and everything you do to make this world so beautiful!
    Sending love and light and Angel Hugs,
    Charmaine

    • Sue Dumais says

      WOW Charmaine! Your words are resonating so deep within my heart. Thank you so much! I feel honoured to have you be witness to my heart’s path and perhaps one day our physical paths will meet so I can give you a physical hug. Much love, light and heart hugs xo

  5. Karen says

    Sue, thanks for sharing your message, your truth and your love with the world. 🙂

    • Sue Dumais says

      Thank you Karen! Much love and heart hugs to you ~ so grateful to have you in my life. Shine bright my friend, the world needs you light.

  6. Caitlin Grace says

    After reading this I felt compelled to start writing my own letter to my uterus ( unlike you I am not brave enough to share it -yet) and have found myself sobbing as I release years of shame, guilt, doubt and lack of creativity believing I am not good enough or deserving enough.
    Thank you form the bottom of my uterus for the courage to share your journey. May you r story spark a revolution of uterus writing women to heal themselves.
    Namaste

  7. Judy says

    Thank you for this very lovely sharing of your healing journey. I am in a situation where I am trying to decide if I should have surgery or not… And I do not know what the best answer really is. That is not an easy thing.

    Thank you for sharing your very beautiful and heartfelt experience.

    • Sue Dumais says

      No Judy the decision is not an easy one but if you let go and trust your heart to lead you, the decision will come with divine timing. In the meantime continue to allow all fears, doubts and worry to wash up and out. This will help clear the path to your intuitive heart. Heart hugs xo

  8. Paula Rice says

    Dearest Sue,
    First of all, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your sharing this letter. I hope it reassures you to know that in your own healing, you’re enabling others such as myself, to heal also.

    As I read your letter, I cried.

    It moved me to tears, as I was being made to realise, all the pressures I’ve been placing on my own uterus as well, to perform to my ever high, exacting and sometimes impossible expectations. There have been so many life instances when my body has helped me and strongly fought my corner.
    My own uterus has ALWAYS been on my side, yet deep within it is the one getting blamed for my current infertility.

    I cry because deep down, I need to just release all my own fear of not experiencing pregnancy, childbirth and motherhood and let go.
    This, my own fear, hurts me more than the sharpest knife ever could and strikes me to my very core, as I can’t imagine not being a mother.

    Perhaps this the place where the real healing is meant to and truly begins..
    Besides, I love and trust the Universe, to bring all of my Heart’s deepest and truest desires, into my life. What is meant within Divine timing will be.

    Thanks again Sue.

    From one open heart to another – peace, love and light always,
    Paula oxo

    • Sue Dumais says

      and another layer of healing for both of us…thank you Paula for sharing your heart with me. I am honoured and humbled to hear how my letter impacted you. Words escape me at this time, only a deep gratitude for you sprinkled with fertile energy to support you on your path. Much love and heart hugs xoxo

  9. Jackie says

    Sue,
    Thank you for being so brave to share such an intimate letter. I had surgery 2 weeks ago and was in such despair. Your letter inspired me and made me feel that I am not so alone and vulnerable.

    Jackie

    • Sue Dumais says

      I am so glad my post inspired you in a time of despair. I hold a vision of vibrant health and healing as you recover from your surgery. Sending healing light and a virtual hug, Sue