Life is full of ups and downs, highs and lows, road blocks, speed bumps and bring you to your knees moments, but it is also full of miracles, celebration, love and magic.
How we choose to look at the circumstances in our life and face the challenges on our path will determine whether life knocks us down or lifts us up.
That last 6 years have not been easy. I have had to face and overcome many health issues. While I have been open and honest about some of my health challenges I haven’t shared all of it.
There were times when I thought I was going to feel sick for the rest of my life. There were times when I lost hope and couldn’t even help myself let alone extend a hand to others. There were times when I was brought to my knees and was tempted to give up, to quit, to let go. There were days I wanted to die and be free of the pain.
I had a farm full of animals and my family to care for, two businesses to run and clients to support. There were days where all I could do is surrender to the exhaustion and lie on the couch all day and other days where I had to drag myself out of bed only to find myself on the couch a few hours later. All the while I had work to do in the world. I had a calling in my heart that I wanted to fulfill. There were people who needed my help and I felt like if I gave up I would be letting them down.
As am empath and intuitive healer I am highly sensitive. I can read the energy and hidden messages behind what others are saying, feeling and doing. I can identify the root of illness and dis-ease. I can feel the emotions and physical pain of others in my body as if it were my own. My gift is deeply sensitive and laser sharp which makes my body extremely sensitive as well. My greatest gift, at times, felt like my greatest curse.
In that last 6 years I have overcome cancer, a rare vitamin A toxicity, a back injury from being thrown off a horse, severe nerve pain in my shoulder, fibroids and adenomyosis, a parasite infection, a partial block in the small intestine, severe blood loss resulting in low blood volume, a pathogen and chronic fatigue…and that is not the exhaustive list.
It was tempting along the way to ask “why?” and feel like a victim spiraling out of control. Especially just when I thought I was overcoming one thing and another would follow. It was one thing after the next and sometimes they would come in clusters. Just when I thought I was feeling strong and was healed I would crash once again.
It has been a process of unwinding my mind, healing my body and forgiving everyone and everything from my past. It has been about clearing a lifetime of unprocessed energy long held in my body. Much of it was not mine. It was the burden I tried carrying for others in hopes to lighten their load. I realize it doesn’t work that way. I can empower another to heal but they need to say YES to healing and it is essential that they walk their path.
My path has not been easy but it has been so worth it.
The last 6 years taught me a lot of life lessons but here is a summary of the biggest ones I received from walking that path called life.
I learned to:
- Surrender. Surrender again. Surrender once more.
- Trust that life has a way of directing me to the path I am meant to be on.
- Stopping asking “why?” and instead ask “what am I meant to learn, feel, heal or experience in order to become the person I am meant to be?”
- Let go of everything I think I know in my head and follow the breadcrumbs. It is only my heart that can truly lead me on my path to health, harmony and wholeness. It is not a linear path and there is no one recipe fits all approach.
- Trust my intuition first. When other’s offer medical advice or options for healing the last stop must always be my own heart to see if it resonates or not.
- The moments that brought me to my knees were my greatest teachers and offered my biggest breakthroughs. Big ugly cries are deeply freeing.
- There is something so much bigger than me directing my life. When I surrender and allow my path to unfold, miracles are abundant and healing is often spontaneous.
- “Nothing ever goes away until it teaches us what we are meant to learn.” Pema Chodron
- If it is on my path, it is purposeful.
- Practicing deep trust and present moment hindsight have become my best tools to take each step on my path with blind faith.
All of my health challenges were very humbling and taught me so much including a deep level of compassion and love for myself. It also expanded my compassion for others allowing me to walk them through overcoming some of their deeply rooted trauma. My intuitive gift has become multidimensional, deeply accurate, laser sharp and powerfully transformative as a result of doing my own deep healing and alignment.
It was not an easy road but it was worth it.
Life is designed as a classroom for our deepest healing and greatest awakening. Sometimes in order to wake up fully we need to be brought to our knees. Many people are desperately holding on to what is no longer serving and life is dragging them along.
When we realize all we need to do is let go, surrender and trust life to lead us, we will free ourselves to feel and to heal. When we surrender to the present moment and say YES to all the potential it holds we will feel a force much bigger than our human selves leading, directing, guiding and holding us with such tender love.
Every step along the road we call life is a beautiful opportunity to wake up to the life we are meant to be living. To say YES to becoming who we are truly meant to be in this world.
To align with our true heart’s path, to fulfill our greatest heart’s work and offer our greatest contribution to humanity.
This is a time for the great awakening and we all have an essential role to play…YES every single one of us.
Are you willing to face your fears?
Are you willing to feel in order to heal?
Are you willing to take each step and trust there is something bigger playing out for all of humanity?
Are you willing to say YES to play your part?
Say YES just say YES!
It won’t be easy, but it will be worth it!
With love and heart hugs,
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